Sunday Scribblings #4 – Masks

When I was profoundly depressed, my good friend LIna, who was my
guardian angel in India, taught me two important things:

1. She continually encouraged me to “fake it till you make it”

2. To respond to my moods by embracing the mantra “act as if”

I made a diligent effort to try be serious about these applying these lessons. At first I felt like an imposter, and that I deserved an honorary Oscar for my dramtic performances.

Sometimes I felt lost behind this mask, shocked at the character I so often needed to play. Other times I had to go without it, exposing my truth, simply honouringthe necessity of my emotional state.

Very rarely now do I need my mask. It’s always handy, though. But nowadays I don’t need to do so much “faking” and “acting”. My peace and joy now are drawn from a genuine well. The other day Gwen pointed that out to me. It reminded me of how far I’ve come.

Mmmmm….so satisfying…..