My body is bigger and I’m a better person now because of it
As my body has grown and changed, I have become a better person for it.That’s right – gaining weight has made me not only healthier physically, but it’s given me mental clarity, emotional ease and confidence. Lots of it.
When I was a kid, I was so physically awkward, clumsy and shy. I didn’t have the confidence to lean into who I truly was. Instead, like lots of people, I compared myself to others.
In doing so, I devalued myself and played everything safe. I was timid and avoided situations where my weaknesses would be exposed.
This meant steering clear of anything physical. No sports or activities requiring physical skill. Why? Because my body was the enemy – it was too much and not enough all at the same time.
When I struggled with adult-onset anorexia, none of that went away. In fact, it became worse since all I focused on was my body.
My recovery brought with it a confidence I had never in my 35 years experienced. I discovered my true self, independent of anyone else.
As I continued gaining weight, I lost something. My hesitation to embrace my body and my life.
I learned, through Nia, that the relationship I have with my body is the most important & precious relationship I’ll ever have.
So now, weighing the most I have ever weighed, I have the most confidence I have ever had.
So much confidence that yesterday at work, I entered a “step up” challenge and beat both men who participated!
Normally I don’t get involved with fitness challenges – mostly because measurement and competition were (in part) what contributed to my exercise addiction. I participated because I knew that others thought (based on my body size and shape) that I couldn’t do it.
But guess what?
FITNESS HAS NO SIZE, SHAPE OR APPEARANCE!
Come join a class with me and experience your own confidence!