Sunday Scribblings #32 -Now and Then

  Context: normally I write my scribblings in Toronto, at a coffee joint called The Jet Fuel where I spend way too much of my time (and hence call it “my office”). I usually write it before I teach my Sunday Nia class. Today I’m scibbling in Seattle. Different vibe altogether!) Now I am sitting…

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Sunday Scribblings #31 – Holiday Memories

I’m really having a hard time making people understand. Getting them to see why I feel as I do about the holidays. It’s not that I didn’t have everything I needed growing up, or that “Santa” didn’t bring me what I wanted. There were many Christmas traditions – baking and decorating cookies (and then stealing…

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Thoughts on Christmas

“It’s the most wonderful time of the year”. Maybe for everyone else, but not for this conscious questioning chick. How do I feel about the holidays? I feel a sense of obligation chased by a sense of failure. There’s this urgency to comply that brings on rebellion and hopelessness. There is no other time of…

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Sunday Scribblings #30 – Dance (Nia)

There could be no better post topic for Sunday Scribblings today than this – dance has given me new life. Specifically, Nia has given me life. Nia, meaning “with purpose” in Swahili, has awakened my body’s way. Nia, a spirited blend of dance, martial arts, and healing arts, is not a “work out”. No, it’s…

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Air

I wrote these a few weeks back. A friend of mine, Naomi Laufer, runs a group called “Poetry in Motion”. It’s a movement and writing group, hosted by 6 St. Joseph House. 6 St. Joseph House is a resource for individuals who are at a crossroads in their lives, and to develop more creative and…

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Sunday Scribblings #29 – Competition

Engaging in an “I’m better than you” society, we define ourselves in relation to masculinity. Instead, why not get down and relate to the earth? Then get up and flow with the rhythm of the cosmos. SHE begs us. Stop. SHE knows it’s not working. Simultaneously, She pleads and shows us better ways. Wait. Dividing…

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What it’s like to have bipolar disorder

i’ve read some cool stuff about bipolar and learn more and more about it which is a great relief. it’s not just the high highs and low lows that we all think of. yes, i have bipolar disorder. i work (sort of), and i put up a good front i like to talk about it…

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Sunday Scribblings #28 – Mis-spent youth

The glory daysThe carefree waysSpinning-round-invoking-hazeThe deliberate “I’m unbeatable” phaseOh me, oh my, I’m in a daze! A triumphantly mis-spent youth. An evil gazeA hurtful phraseSleepy, pimply, angry daysThe “you just don’t understand me” crazeOh me, oh my, I’m in a daze! A dazzlingly mis-spent youth. Whispering, gossipy, “I’m ugly” daysThe “I’ve invented BETTER ways”A daring,…

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No Fat Chicks – Terry Poulton

Why did I spend so long fighting fat? Um, duh…. it was because the world taught me to! With the advent of Weight Watchers, ours was a diet, body conscious household. Worse, during my vulnerable adolescent years, I yo-yoed and enjoyed the favourable endorsements of my “slimage”. The battle against myself continued because I was…

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