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Thoughts on Christmas

“It’s the most wonderful time of the year”. Maybe for everyone else, but not for this conscious questioning chick. How do I feel about the holidays? I feel a sense of obligation chased by a sense of failure. There’s this urgency to comply that brings on rebellion and hopelessness. There is no other time of…

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To serve and protect

I’m still trying to figure out just what I witnessed this morning. Cycling home from a doctor’s appointment up Parliament Street, I got cut off by a police officer making a U turn. After narrowly missing me, he pulled over, got out of his car (which was still idling), and walked over to a panhandler…

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a complicated kindness by Miriam Toews

I love recording excerpts from books. They give me ideas and strength and something concrete to relate to. It used to be that I’d copy things out in my journal or save them as word files. I’m ready to start sharing them in blog-land now. So here’s one from the book I’m currently reading. The…

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His Holiness the XIV Dalai Lama – Roger’s Centre, Toronto, October 31

Yesterday afternoon I had the most honourable priveledge of being surrounded by beautiful Tibetan women wearing their best Chupas and aprons. Miniature tibetan flags were abundant and age-old mudras (sacred hand gestures used to express wisdom) reminded me of the sacred traditions held in the space. I sat, in my unassigned VIP lounge booth (!),…

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A good fit

Black and white checkered skateboard shoes (Vans).I used to have a pair.That was when I tried to “fit in”Odd, that. Fitting in.I’m laughing now, because it doesn’t matter any more.At the time, it was painfully important.Tapered pants, Polo shirts, deck shoes, sweatshirts plastered with ads forRoots and Beaver Canoe.Later, leather jackets with tassels and cowboy…

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Workin’ hard today

I seem to do a lot of work. Right now I don’t have a lot to show for it. No regular pay cheque. No “employer”. Wait, that’s totally wrong!I have HAPPINESS to show for it. That’s BIG… really freakin‘ BIG! More sumptuous than a big fat wallet. More tantalizing than a 6 figure salary. Yes,…

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I found some inspiration!

A timely book came to me to help me get “unstuck”.     It’s called Crossings: Everyday People, Unexpected Events, and Life-affirming Change. By Richard A. Hecklyer, Ph.d.     Now I know that there are universal stages that describe my experiences:   * the Slumber   * the Call   * Incubation   *…

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Today I am no longer a blog virgin!

I got lost online today. Found myself here creating a blog and I’m curious about what’s gonna happen with it! Mostly, I’m here because I’m procrastinating. My goal for today is to edit a piece that I’m writing. I’m working on a 1500 word story about the last 4 years of my life. Not fiction.…

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